He never really smile or hug me in the airport. Does our love fade ...
He went to New Zealand. He don't really say much to me before he left me. I watched his back when he go off and never turn back.
writtern @5:54 AM
Monday, November 3, 2008
It was a sunny Friday afternoon. I meet up with meilian and walked across the bridge together. I offered her to come my house. She agreed and so we took bus 15 back to my home. When we reach home, I brought her to my brother's room. We went upstairs and I turn on the karaoke system to listen to some music. Then, back to our kbox visit, decided to sing without microphone. After singing for quite a while, we were tired, so we took a short lie on the mattress. Then I started by tickling her foot, haha, that make her scream and in return, tickle me back. We had huge laughter and happiness that time. Then we went downstairs to look at my brother's laptop because meilian wanted to look at my brother's picture. Then i told meilian " there's nothing to be afraid of lying on my brother's bed", so she lied on it. Shortly, we saw the picture on soon, we felt very tired and went asleep. Soon later, I was awoke and I stared the tickling game again. We really enjoyed ourselves that night and out of the sudden, we hugged each other tightly as couples even through we though we were just friends. This time, it was a raining Friday afternoon. Again, I asked meilian to come my house and again, she agreed. So we reached home excitedly. Then I took a soccer ball out and we started playing football. We scored and played out with all our hearts. Then soon after, meilian had a foot struck on my leg and in the process, she sprained her ankle. Still, we continued our procedure of singing but this time, she had to bath first cause she stinks. Then I remember having tuition on that day so we went out together, while I ran to chase the bus 53, I was very worried about meilian safety as she injured her ankle badly. The following day, meilian asked me out for accompany her to see a physician. I was quite touched as guys offered to bring her go but instead she called me to accompany. As soon as I reached the bus station, I had to wait for her. It was my first time waiting for a girl, I was fuming. We took bus 65 to reach amd as soon as meilian gets her waiting queue, we went to the coffee shop and I ordered Yong Tau Hu to treat her. This was my first time treat a person. I was making fun of her when she was being seen by the doctor. We had great laughter that time. Then, we went to my house and I "suan" her by asking her want to play soccer or not. I hugged her and said sorry for her leg. She said it was Okay and we both laughed because of how she got the injuries. Then as usual, at night she went home. Out of the blue, I asked meilian out for a movie, we went to take bus 69 together and end up at bedok MRT station and next we went to watch our first movie "Cars". I remember being wanted to hug her that time but lacked the courage to do so. Then, as I wanted to remember this day for life, I brought her a car's soft toy. This is the first time I brought something for a girl. She was delighted that day and soon, we went to a restaurant at the basement of TM, next to the sushi restaurant to eat. The forth time meilian came to my house, we were already like have somthing in our hearts. We know that what's happening already. When meilian asked what relation are we, I just said"waht else could it be?" and meilian took a really sweet smile and we hugged each other. That night was perhaps one of our most wonderful miracle as we slept, hugging each other. Ont that particular night, I could not bear to not see her so I took a cab down to find her and she, of course, came downstair with a pjamas. We hugged each other near the sea saw and she told me she was still a virgin. "???" was the only thing in my brain. There is one time when we went up the carpark to the top. We really enjoyed ourselves up there. Then meilian had a thing in mind, that is to tell me all the truth about her past. The minute I heard all of these, I was really shocked. These and that, it gave me a huge headache. I couldn't study , could not sleep at night. It was until the time that I told myself, I am willing to continue further not because of anything, but for the love I have to her. This is the first time I'm willing to put my heart out for someone. Then, on one particular night, I told her all my feeling, that I don't mind and so. I am not sure if she's touched but to me, this is the best I can do so far! I remembered once when there is double moon in the skies. We went up to the top of the carpark again and enjoyed the view. It was raining and sadly that night, I had to walked home alone, for 45mins. Soon later, we went to watch "Hookwinkled" movie together. It was the first time we kissed and I truely remember that moment. I remember that meilian wanted to go for her friend's barbecue. By the time she reached the place, she turned back and said she did not want to attend it. I hugged her and later carried her because there were many cockroches on the ground and meilian is scared of it. There was once when meilian was sicked and still, she attened work. When she was in the train, I called her and took the inituative to take a cab down to Tampines and accompany her see a doctor and paid for $46.20. I actually begged the $, saying cause I need it urgently. Don't know if she really appreciate it. I remember once, don't know what happen, she didn't want to listen to my calls and reply my msg! I was like, what the hell I did? Then I ran from my home to her house trying to figure what happened! I almost lost my life that moment as I lost my gapse of air and can't breathe so properly. I hope that this will end our misery and let us start happily again! But don't know if gods hates be throughtly, it was not enough! During Hari Raya, I worked fromnine to twelve, and I brought a shirt for meilian, I begged my supervisor for the loan okie! It was embrarrassing! When I reached her home downstairs, I passed the shirt to her! I thought and ya, she laughed and we both felt very happy! I have been trying my best to let her happy! I have already tried all kinds of method including going to the park, spending $ on her after getting my pay, buy for her stuffs(etc thumbdrive) to make her happy and fetching her after her work at orchard and even at the risk of dying! I don't understand what more can she expect? Whar else I haven't give her! Even when she got mens, I still get for her chicken soup. Buy her corn when I see it..what else.
writtern @6:23 AM
This is my heart It is red colour I will only treat the person I love with care and concern Don't break it into pieces. Try to learn some trust on me I will be your best cushion when you are sad I will always have my arms for you when you cry you will be the only one in my heart (V) Love me
Written from Remy
writtern @6:14 AM
Sunday, October 26, 2008
7th of July 2006 is always a special day for me. That is when i got together with Crystal, a very adorable and innocent girl. Here is where our memories will be kept throughout...
